goodbye

I don't need you anymore, I don't need the assurance that whenever I call you to talk you will answer. I don't need to tell you everything about my life. I don't need all of the late night random car rides or the nights where we spend a ton of money on junk food just to watch movies. You you were a huge part of my life, but I can't keep doing this. I've given so much that I simply just can't give anymore. I will miss you like crazy, but it is time for us to go our separate ways and move on. No one will ever get me the way that you have, but I have to accept that. You have been through so many of the same experiences that you always know exactly what to say and when, but that isn't enough for me anymore. Without you physically in my life I can't be friends. Yes I can always text you, but that is no where near the same. I really hope your so called "friends" are worth it in the long run, because right now they have already proven to be people I would never see you getting along with. I really cannot wait for you to move away so I can put the past behind us. Worrying about seeing you limits what I can do daily. It will be the best for both of us because you could care less what I do. As much as it is going to hurt, I don't need you in my life anymore. So please, when you move away, don't ever try to talk to me again. I need to get on with my life with you out of the picture. Yeah maybe my life won't be the same or maybe I won't be as happy with you out of my life, but I know that I can move on and one day I will be happier without you than I ever was with you.

love

Why is it that all people think that they are in love with their significant other within the first week that they start dating. They do not even know the person enough to be in love with them. It can take years for two people to love each other. Granted their are feelings involved when you are in a relationship, but how do you know that that is what love is? You think that you are in love with someone and then once they do something wrong you automatically stop loving them. True love never ends. You will always have feelings for that person even if you do not want to. This is one of my biggest pet peeves. I do not know where they are in their relationship but I can almost gaurentee that they are not in love. I have dated people for weeks and we were not in love with each other. Everybody has a different sense in feelings. Maybe they can be in love in a week. I do not believe in love at first sight but some people may. Why I think of love at first sight I think of just looking at someone. It takes way more than looks to actually love someone. If you are in love with their looks you should not be in love with that person. Looks can help but the personality is the key. I think that some people that are not attrative are the best looking. Personality makes up for the not so good looks. I do not see how you can fall in love at first sight. Maybe im not the hopeless romantic I always thought I was.

Expectations

Why do parents have such high expectations for their children? They want them to do everything their way: receive high grades, play the sports they played, be in every extra-curricular activity that will help them get into the higher colleges. The kids get so stressed out that they cannot take it. If they do bad at the sport they play they pressure them into doing it right until they do not want to play anymore. They turn their kids out of a passion that they used to have. If they get an A- they make them fix it until they get an A. Sometimes it is nearly impossible to get an A on an assignment. The teacher/professor may not be a great teacher and the tests could be extremely difficult making it nearly impossible to pass, expecially when the teacher says that no one has gotten over a B on any of his tests in the past forty years. One little mistake and their relationship is over. They treat them like animals no matter how hard they try to become what they want them to be. It amazes me how some parents can have no respect for their children. They show no love for them and only show them respect when they do good. All people want is to love and to be loved in return. With parents who do not show them love they might not be able to show love to someone else or even their kids when they get older. They will treat them the same way they were treated as a child. People need to show compassion and love to their children even in their hard times in life.

Halloween

So yesterday was Halloween and it had me thinking about why we actually celebrate the holiday. Growing up in school you always did crafts dealing with pumpkins or witches, you always carved pumpkins to put outside as Halloween decorations, and you dress up as someone you have always wanted to be year after year to walk around and get tons of candy that is bad for you. After you collect your candy you go home and sort it all out and pick out the candy that you don't want and try to find someone to give it to. I never remember actually learning about the meaning of Halloween and why we celebrate it.

As I research what Halloween is about I have found many interesting details. Halloween actually means the day before All Hallows Day, a Catholic holiday commemorating Christian saints. It goes farther back to Ireland where it is known as Samhain the day that ends summer and starts winter. We wear costumes because of the medival practices of mumming where they wore costumes, sang, and went door to door praying for the dead in exchange for treats.

The history of Halloween seems interesting to me. Instead of going door to door praying for the dead we go door to door asking for candy. How did it go from praying to candy? It all seems mysterious about why we celebrate Halloween.

broken

Almost anything can relate to glass. Once it is broken it cannot be fixed exactly how it was. Life. Once someone hurts you, you start to put up walls and have trust issues. When youre sick you lose cells that you might never get back. Friendships. Once someone breaks the trust it will never be the same. You will not act the same around that person. you possibly will never be friends with them again. You may not be able to find a friend ever again. Food. Once it breaks it falls into crumbs and will never be the same. If you cut pieces of food than it cannot be uncut. Many things are like glass and cannot be fixed. Life, relationships, and food are just some examples. Nothing can ever be fixed exactly how it was before it was broken. Even if you fix a car the piece will not be the same as the manufacture had it. Sometimes things are better when they have been broken. Once you lose your trust issues you create stronger ones. You don't have friends that you tell everything to because they start rumors. Once rumors are spread your self esteem gets broken and you have to fix it. You may have less self confidence and have to wait for that perfect someone to come and make you whole again. Even though things are broken people will still find them treasures. People would rather have a broken cookie than a whole one or broken chips rather than big ones. Everyone has been broken and you just have to pick and chose what you can put up with.

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welfare

Welfare is causing many problems in today's society. Most of the people that receive welfare should not receive it. They spend their money on alcohol and drugs and not to support their families. They don't try to get jobs, instead they live off the money the government is giving you. Many people are ok with this. I think that there needs to be higher standards in order to receive government assistance. I think that they need to have a job and take tests and be free of drugs and alcohol. In order to have a good life for their families they need to improve their lives first. In they are in a different state of mind they aren't taking care of their kids and should not receive assistance. They should be the parental role that they chose to be. If they wanted to live the party life they live they should not have had kids. The kids should not grow up taking care of themselves. They should have a role model, food on the table, clothes on their bodies, and a shelter to live in. They need to live a life that they want their kids to live.

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the little things

Its the little things in life that truly mean the most. Yesterday we cooked our pastor and his family dinner for pastor appreciation month. We delivered it to their house and they were beyond grateful. It was so awesome to see the smiles on their face.
You don't realize what you have until you see someone else who doesn't have it. They are struggling to get by. I am truly blessed to have a shelter over my head,clothes on my body, and food on my plate every night. It's so hard to believe that some people don't have that. The objects we take for granted are the objects that some people would love to have. It doesn't hit you that the life you live is not that bad compared to all of the other people in the world. we have clean water that comes straight to our house where as Africans spend one third of their lives going to get water that isn't even clean. What if everyone lived the lifestyle that we live? Would the world be a better place?

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