talking

Why is that everytime we have to speak on front of people we pause, stutter, and make a fool of ourselves. Yesterday i had to start prayer at my bible study and I was at a loss of words. I didn't know what to say. When I pray by myself i can do it for hours. Today I had to give a speech and i got really nervous. I can hold a conversation with anybody so why do I freeze in front of people? My guess is that I feel that they are judging me. That I'm going to fast or to slow. That I'm really boring. I don't know why I get that way. When I used to sing in front of people I would break out in hives. Maybe because I think people might say I'm a bad singer. I hate not pleasing people so that might be my problem. I guess I'll never know.

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